I haven't started my homework (which is GIA notes, woll notes, buzz post and the precis for research). Easy stuff I should have been done with 3 hours ago, and I should be sleeping right now. But I couldn't, because I was too busy thinking about you, or more specifically, purposefully distracting myself so that I wouldn't think about you.
I hate this feeling, of wanting to confess everything to you, but at the same time, having to hold myself back because I know that it's of no use. And I have to forget about you. And I have to erase this part of my heart that I've held reserved for you, for so long. And I'm sorry that this is true, but my self deprivation is much easier than to go after happiness.