Busy busy busy bee

I'm taking a mental break by going online tonight. Every day for the past week has had to do with Airband for me. Practices after school, after after school into midnight, and over the weekends. I spent all of last night with Michelle and Brian making the spaceship for the senior act. This better turn out good. . .

Why am I dedicating my time to this? Airband is nothing. It won't be anything in two weeks, when it's over. And even if it fails, it won't affect me in anyway. Except I like organizing stuff and making sure stuff works out. I want our senior act to be amazing, even if it feels like only 10 other people out of the entire senior class gives a poop.

So tired. I just got a job. AP testing is coming up. Finals and senior exhibition are coming up after that. And after Airband...there's just Prom and Graduation that are important to me. Everything's going to go by so fast and Ms. Boquiren is right, I need to slow down and enjoy what's left of my high school life. I know I'm going to miss it, and I'm going to regret letting everything pass by because I'm too busy working or doing homework or applying to scholarships or a second summer job or doing interviews. . . but. . . these things are necessary. Sigh. Time management skills, I hope you kick in soon.

I haven't worked out in about two weeks, but my body feels so tired because I'm dancing and just simply being up too much. All nighters.......in the last couple months of senior...doesn't feel right. But I WILL pass the AP Chem test even if it kills me.

And I have a C in Government. How is that even possible. Even if I have 0% in participation (the substitute barely gave out any, I mean, Ms. Kovacic wasn't in class for like, half of the first semester and we don't even do passwords anymore). I either ace or get Bs on my notebook or tests. There's no way my grade should be a B. Kovacic has it out for me. Sigh. For internship, I wanted an internship that pertained to engineering, and I specified that because I told her I want to go into engineering. But no, she gave me like, my 5th choice. And she gave Dean the internship that I wanted with CalIT2, even though he didn't even rank it. Sigh. It's okay. All this won't matter in the long run.

I'm just so tired. And being hit with so many stuff from every direction. I wonder when my breaking point will be. I'm so weak. I can't even handle high school, how am I supposed to handle working two jobs throughout college to pay for it? Come on, Trang. Buck up.

Revelation

I can work at the AMC at night, because that's when it's the most popular, and at SeaWorld in the morning, because that's when it's the most popular, over the summer, to pay for college :D I don't know how weekends will work out, though. Hrmmmmmmm.

Aye, the limitations of human mind.

I grew up with computers and a bunch of technology. I thought that anything was possible. But the limitations of will...human physical capabilities and mental capabilities...sigh.

No matter how hard I work or how hard I try...it's not enough. I'm afraid it won't ever be enough.